It’s 4:20am and I’m being awoken by the sounds of the birds welcoming
in the new day. Each of them has their own story and song to share with
the world and it seems that only now I am able to hear it.
Yesterday I was given a very special and unique gift that at the time I
was unable to put into words. Before I share that with you, I’d like to
acknowledge Mr Gary Douglas and express my heartfelt gratitude for
the gift he has given to our world including the Access Bars.
Before the bars my life was very challenging. I felt like I had no voice
and was trapped in my life, silently screaming. There was very little joy,
happiness and freedom and in my world. Being a mum of two, I
recognised that my life had become all about doing, doing, doing and
giving, giving, giving and there was a distinct lack of receiving.
Until my friend introduced me to “The Access Bars”. They changed my
world and gave me so much peace, happiness, joy and freedom. Then
yesterday I opportunity and the pleasure of meeting Denzel who is on
the spectrum and is just beginning to have a voice of his own. He stood
up in front of a room full of amazing gifted beings and offered his
services to run Bars to us all.
In that moment I had the awareness that my body wanted to receive a
session from Denzel so I signed up. At the lunch break I approached
Denzel and introduced myself to him and said I had put my name down
to have a session and was really looking forward to it. After the break it
My body was excited. As I lay down on the table I asked “What energy
space and consciousness can me and my body be to fully receive the
gift from my session with Denzel today”. And then we began. I felt every
cell of my body come to life and my eyes were flickering constantly at a
super fast pace. I felt like I was frozen in time and was acutely aware of
what was happening around me. My body was heavy and solid and I felt
like I could not speak or communicate even if I wanted to. It was like
someone had pressed the pause button, it was surreal. The best thing
about it was that I laid there completely open to receive and totally free
of judgement. I was so grateful for this gift.
After my session my body continued to process what it had received. It
felt foreign and different and I began to have a sense of fear for the
unknown and what I could not perceive. It was like riding a wild wave
and being totally out of control. Part of me wanted to return and escape
this feeling and when I shared this with a friend she asked “What is
about this that you are not getting?” And it was in that moment that I got
There was a wave of emotion, followed by tears of empathy,
compassion and love as I replied “Oh my god.. My body is experiencing
what it is like for my son Alex” The words left me and the fear melted
away. I sat in silence acknowledging the feelings and emotions in that
moment and opened my heart and received the Gift they be.
I have 2 X Men in my life, my son now 16 and my husband. For the past
11 years I have given all of me to do whatever it takes to help my son
lead what I perceived to be a “normal” life in this reality. What I get now
is that there is No normal only a different way of being, knowing,
perceiving and receiving. For a long time I got stuck and lost in my own
interpretation. And now I have been given the gift of translation. Thank
I am so grateful for “The Bars” and how it has changed my world. It has
allowed me to “Be Me” and Be the difference that is required in this
reality without sacrificing me. I feel like now is time to step up and be the
voice of change for the children of the world. And unlock and release the
parenting constraints that hold us back from being empowered authentic
role models to our children.
Our children are the adults and leaders of the future and will one day be
our voice when we have none. The many choices they make will in
some way have an impact in the world we live in. If we stifle their voice
and takeaway their choice they will not grow. Instead we need to listen
and encourage them to choose and keep choosing and be and keep
So My question to you is.. “What would it take for you to step up and be
the gift you are within with total ease?” and “What would it take for
everyone to be able to receive the gift of the bars with total ease?
Once again Thank you Gary and Thank you Denzel