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When will I start receiving?

August 31, 2013

By Michelle Foyle, Queensland Australia

When I heard about the Being You, Changing the World class early in 2013 I checked it out on the Access Consciousness website, saw there was one being held in Queensland in May, saw the price and immediately decided too expensive, even though I was very drawn to doing the class with Dain.

A short time later I thought about the class again, looked it up again and maintained my decision that it was too expensive. I had to consider the cost of the class, return flights to Queensland from Western Australia and accommodation.

Later again I was thinking about the class and finally asked two questions. These were questions I had been playing with for some time with small decisions and had found they worked for me. So one day I asked “If I go to the Being You class, what will my life be like in 5 years?” then I got the energy of it for it moment. The second question I asked was “What will my life be like in 5 years if I don’t go to the Being You class?” and I sat with the energy of that for a moment. It was extremely light for me to go to the class.

I worked through POD and POC-ing some points of view about money, asked the two questions every few days for a while and finally made the choice to go to the class. As soon as I booked the class I had a huge sense of lightness and I started giggling like a 6 year old, with excitement. That’s how I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that the class would be an expansive experience for my life and living.

I went to the class knowing very little about it. The only expectation I had was that I would show up to class every day and so would Dain.

The first night I was very busy contributing energy to everyone who required it. I was having fun doing this and had a sense of gratitude to be able to contribute in this way. I continued in this fashion throughout the first day. Dain mentioned that on the third day we would talk about creating your future and I knew I would contribute more during that conversation.

During the class Dain consistently asked the group, and individuals he invited to the table, “If you could get anything out of this, what would it be?” I had no answer for myself but didn’t judge myself for it.

At some point during the second day a question arose within me, “When will I start receiving?” followed by “What would I like to get out of this class?” Knowing I would contribute more on the third day I asked Consciousness to let me know what question to ask Dain and when to ask it, “Okay universe, you let me know.”

I continued to enjoy the class, listening to people ask questions, listening to Dain be Dain (laughing my butt off), contributing where I could, receiving bars, soaking it all up like a 2 year old kid, smiling goofily. All the while I rigidly held onto this reality, thinking I had to stand the whole time due to a lingering spinal injury that I had decided made it uncomfortable for me to sit for extended periods. So I stood, not talking to many people, thinking I was doing great “being me.”

So the third day came, I asked again “Okay universe, you let me know what to ask and when.” At some point I got the awareness that now was the time to ask a question so I got up and waited by the microphone not knowing what I would ask. I remained in the question “Universe, please let me know what to say” and the words came. When I was speaking I had a strong sense of yearning for more, demand and absolute desire for my life to change and for me to create something greater. These were feelings I had shut off for many years.

I was lucky enough to be invited to the table for a session and what followed was nothing short of amazing. I allowed myself to receive from the Community of We, through Dain. During my session on the table with Dain I had fun, I received energy I had never sensed before and my body love, love, loved it! For the first time I got the sense that everything was truely, totally okay and that Consciousness had my back, always, and always would.

Prior to Access I had been creating change, slowly. During the year of Access prior to the Being You class my life had been changing at a faster pace, then the Being You class turbo charged it!

In the weeks that followed the class I acknowledged that I hadn’t been willing to receive much, that I had locked myself away from the world and my reality, behind walls I didn’t cognitively think we’re as big as they were. I had made them bigger than me. Cute, not so bright!

I had created a reality that wasn’t working for me, I wasn’t having fun and I wasn’t allowing my body to have fun. I was spending a lot of energy trying to make myself believe my life and my body were actually working, all the while knowing I required something different.

Following the class I listened to as much Access as I could, in almost every spare minute. I remained in the question, with everything in my life. I didn’t make any choices unless I first asked a question. Previously I had only made small decisions using the ‘what will my life be like’ tool. Considering how easy choices had become for me, I chose to use the tool about my job, a few short days later I resigned and again became the giggly 6 year old. Good choice!

Awarenesses started coming to me thick and fast. I worked to uncreate and destroy points of view about my body, money, sex, receiving, relationships, judgements of me and more.

The next big decision I made was about staying in Western Australia or possibly moving to Queensland to do some Access classes at the end of the year. I asked the ‘what will my life be like’ questions, each time I asked it was light for me to move. After some POD and POC-ing (again about money) I packed up my car and drove to my new home in Queensland! It was such a joy to pack up and leave the home I’d lived in for 20+ years, to leave my family, my friends and my cat behind. Such is life when you have no points of view.

Now I get to live in an amazing house, with an amazing house mate, in a truely amazing location. My room is filled with natural light and I can even sunbake directly on my bed if I choose!

I unlocked a HUGE amount of body discomfort and my body began to have ease for the first time in… oh, just my whole adult life!

I have chosen to listen to my body more so it can have fun… sexually and in other ways. And what fun we’ve had!! I recently had the awareness that my body and I contribute to each other and together we create a life and living that works for both of us. I’ve acknowledged that my body enjoys to be looked at and I get that this has nothing to do with my being, so I gift my body to wear what it likes, people look and my body loves it!

Had I not gone to the Being You class my life would be very different, I would probably still be working at the same job, living in a situation that I didn’t enjoy, not enjoying my body, still creating lots of aches and pains, agonising over money and food, and I certainly would not be on a 5 week overseas adventure! I would have continued to create change in my life, slowly.

I write this blog from Florence, Italy, 3 weeks into a 5 week trip to Vietnam and Italy, which will end with the Level 2/3 class with Dain in Venice. Today I travel to Milan for 2 days to shop for designer clothing that my body will enjoy, including fancy Italian lingerie and my first pair of real high heels. It’s possible that I’ll spend what I would previously have considered a large amount of money. I am grateful to have the possibility of choosing this.

Everyday I use some Access tools, everyday I create my life and living the way I choose it, everyday I create myself as who I choose to be. Everyday I get to be me, the being I truely be. How did I get so lucky?

I create change quickly because that’s what I demand. I choose to use the Access tools daily. I choose to listen to Access audios a lot. I choose to create a life and living I enjoy. The Being You class certainly further facilitated this for me. To think I wasn’t going to go because of points of view about money, that weren’t even mine.

You might think I’m special, or I have different circumstances that allow me to make different choices and certain changes, or that I have more courage than you. I can tell you we all have the capacity to know that we know, and to make a different choice based on our knowing. That’s all I do, over and over again.

So my friend, if you could choose anything, from a universe of infinite possibilities, what would you choose?

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Nerida

Sep 1, 2013

Hi Love you story wow o wow some off what you write is me to a T
Have a magical day
Nerida

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Sylvia

Sep 6, 2013

Beautiful! Thank you for sharing :). I feel like I’m very much in the same process of experiencing this. I’m planning on going to my first class this October. Yay! Thank you for sharing your story of hope, growth, transformation, living life and more! How does it get any better than this?! 🙂

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Marie

Sep 6, 2013

Thank you SO much for sharing your story! So much of it, I relate to, especially the leaving your job part. I did the same thing this week! And you know what? I’m not freaking out about it! So, What else is possible”

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abdul rafi ahamed

Sep 6, 2013

thanks for sharing, opens up a lot of possibilities.

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Natasha

Sep 6, 2013

Loved reading your story Shell, and so fantastic that you are benefiting so much from this.
Luv and miss ya.

Tash.

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Maria

Sep 6, 2013

Wow!! Truly wow!

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zannierose

Apr 23, 2014

what a delight to read about this sunny change in and of your life. Thanks for reminding me to keep on asking questions. I wonder how much more magic your life is now after several months and more questions?

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Tabitha

Apr 28, 2015

So grateful I found this today. So, light. So, joyful.
My change, too, has been slow. So yes, my body and I would enjoy commitment to more questions everyday to create the ease and magic truly desired! So, what else is possible right now?

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Kulwant

May 4, 2015

I loved your story and I live in birmingham UK. I so want to do this and learn and become a facilitator myself. I am only learning the dynamics of pod and poc at the moment.

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