“You’re pregnant…and there are two.”

Time freezes.

Legs go to jelly. Doctor’s talking turns to distant blurry noise.

The experience of pregnancy, starting with the day you discover the news, is hard to describe. Pregnant with twins is a whole other animal. Surprise pregnancy with twins in a foreign country in a brand new relationship with an irregular ‘job’ and no health insurance… let’s just say it was a bit of a shock.

“There was one problem. They didn’t know about my secret weapon. Actually, my secret arsenal of military-grade weaponry, called Access Consciousness”

I had no idea what to expect, and I was constantly being told what to expect. Because of my age, I am considered a ‘high-risk’ pregnancy. Because I’m having twins, that’s considered ‘high-risk’ as well. What high-risk means is that at every doctor’s appointment they look at my body with wary eyes, ordering lots of extra scans, blood-work, tests, and ask me a lot of questions to determine how precarious the state of my body and the babies is.

There was one problem. They didn’t know about my secret weapon. Actually, my secret arsenal of military-grade weaponry, called Access Consciousness®.

Morning sickness? Who does that belong to?

Immigration officials? Interesting point of view you have the point of view that I can’t stay in your country. I think I’ll get permanent residency and medicare and a house on the beach.

Anemia? Body: what process would assist you in growing more than enough big hearty blood cells? What foods do you desire to be able to get the iron and nutrients you require?

Hormonal moody b$tch take-over? Nothing a little Access Bars® can’t handle in an hour or two.

Heartburn? How about a 1-2-3 contribution to the earth? Or 10 or 20 of those and then some peppermint tea?

Four tiny knees in the ribcage and a shoulder in the bladder? Little dudes, please can you move so Mommy’s body can have more ease?

Total overwhelm/meltdown/freakout? What questions can I ask here? Universe, show me something beautiful! Babies, can you please contribute to this being ease for all of us? And while you’re at it, please contribute to us making a lot of money. Thank you!

I won’t lie. There have been days I thought I might die. There have been moments that I spent 10 seconds hoping for death. But they have been few. Very few, far between, short-lived, and I always have some tool, question or body process to pull out to handle it.

I also have a sweet, nurturing partner caring for me and our bodies constantly, running body processes on my body every night. Running my Bars whenever the “waaaaambulance” visits.

I have a group of the most dynamic, creative, caring powerhouse friends on the planet who have my back. Who contribute endlessly in every way you can imagine, and lots of ways you can’t.

“I look to what we are creating, what we are changing, what contribution we are to one another and to this beautiful planet”

I’m 30 weeks in now, babies due sometime in the next 10 weeks. Doctors are baffled. My blood sugar is perfect. My blood pressure is nice and low. My iron levels are great. The babies are growing right on schedule and all their basic parts are accounted for and fully functioning. We haven’t had any of the expected or predicted problems, complications, worrying events or trouble at all.

On top of the mysterious ease-filled pregnancy, the team of specialised docs are most confused as to why I would be asking about delivering two babies naturally; ie without drugs, without surgery, without hospital intervention.

“I know that what we call magic and miracles here is only scraping the surface of what should be and could be possible”

But again, they don’t know about my capacity to talk to my body and to my babies. They don’t understand what communion is; what is possible when you can talk to and hear from every molecule in the planet. They don’t know that I don’t function in this reality. They definitely don’t know that this is possible for them too.

But I do.

I know that what we call magic and miracles here is only scraping the surface of what should be and could be possible; and actually already is.

I know that ‘ask and you shall receive’ is true.

I know that these tools are here to unlock some very dangerous weapons. They are dangerous to the structures, confines and limitations of this world. Dangerous to the idea that you and your body are separate.

I know that without the tools of Access, this journey would look totally different. But why would I look at that? I look to the future. I look to what we are creating, what we are changing, what contribution we are to one another and to this beautiful planet. I look at the sweet bodies and amazing children here and I am filled with gratitude, awe, and inspiration.

And I say bring it. It’s time we create our world, our planet, and use those weapons of mass-destruction to blast away anything that gets in our way. Let’s use every tool and weapon we can get our hands on to our advantage! And let’s acknowledge the brilliance of our bodies, and gift them (and us) with these incredible energies.

Lauren Marie

Soon-to-be momma of two
Access Consciousness Certified Facilitator
Bringer-on of total change of physical reality